Sorry for going dark again, but I had to think hard about what I wanted to do next, and I needed the write words to come to me, and they have.
At the outset of this blog, I said I was unpublished, and it’s true, but only in terms of being paid.
Last summer, my old critique heard about these anthologies that were looking for submissions, and they all suggested I submit to them as they did,
So, why’d I submit anyway? One reason only-
I was tired of hearing “No” from agents I queried my books to.
They accepted nearly everything sent in, no fierce competition was nice, but it felt hollow to get published this way. The few short stories I’ve written are longer than most magazines are willing to consider, 500 word gems do not come easy to me, no matter how much I work them.
Another perk was these anthologies didn’t want “All rights” as most magazines do now, and I’ve yet to learn how to write things I know I won’t want to reuse the same world and characters but still have the level of quality and care put into it.
I thought if I’d be able to let go of my frustrations if I sent those anthologies my stories because I knew they wouldn’t say “No” unless I submitted too late and all spots were spoken for, but that didn’t happen.
Even now, nearly six months later, and despite all my efforts to do so, I don’t feel any different about this.
Everyone in my group and other writers I know preached to me it doesn’t matter and that I should be grateful I was published somewhere at all whether I was paid or not, but they don’t understand how I feel, because they have other things they’re good at, things people value and are paid for their hard work. Even if they never get published (Which would be a shame because I know how good they are) they do so many other things that make them feel needed and feel some sense of accomplishment, even if they hate the job.
I know these are frustrations I’ll always have to deal with, just like the writers before me, but I hope solace comes for me sooner rather than later.
If you are interested in the anthologies where my work appears, click here, and search for the following titles.
Something in the Attic
I might not update this weekend, as I’ve got a lot of reading and soul searching to do, but check back Tuesday, March 1st for an important update about ttheT.A.A. Prose and Poetry Slam.
Until Next Time, May the fantastical fauna be with you,