I’m sorry, but this is what I have to do, I need a hiatus

I know I’ve been MIA lately, and I’m truly sorry, this blog means a lot to me. Everyone who’s stuck with me mean a lot to me, and I’ve done everything I can think of to snap myself out of the haze of pain I’m in, but it’s just not happening.

That’s why I’ve decided to put regular updates on hold. 

However, the contest is still going on, and I’ll still be reading entires, and once for all, I WILL PICK A WINNER AND WILL GIVE OUT THE PRIZES AS I PROMISED. PERIOD. EXCLAMATION POINT. THE END! 

Got it?

I hate myself for being weak like this, but there’s nothing left I can do, and no one’s going to tell me I didn’t do anything to make of best of things.

I thought I had it in me to keep going, but I’m stuck, and I don’t know why and if I’ll ever get unstuck.

Writing’s not fun anymore.
Reading’s not fun anymore.
Not getting better is getting impossible to deal with.

I’m tired of getting nothing but form letter rejections.
I’m sick of being told to be a fast food flunkie.
I hate that no one thinks your serious about anything without a damn college degree!

I’m sick of hearing people preach about this stupid know-it-all Robert Heinlein. I’m not him, I’ll never be him, so stop telling me how brilliant he was, I’m just not him!!

I’m sorry, I just need some time, and I wish things were different.